bursts of orange

I lay here unable to get up Weakened by the ghosts oozing out of the walls i nto harsh focus I haven’t the strength to turn away To cover my eyes To shield my mind As the pantomime replays my wounds are salted Filling me with a pain that beats in me To the rhythm of my heart Image upon image, The colors an emotional kaleidoscope The palette based in pain Pain in my gut Pain in my body But most of all pain I’m my mind My mind that forces me to watch these ghosts These phantoms of my night-mare This re-enactment of the very source of the fire This gruesome fire that seeks to consume me I watch one ghost in particular because she looks so much like me But it can’t be I could never survive that Could never live to tell it Then I remember why it is I’m lying here… It was me and this is my script As the scene comes to an end And the ghosts retreat I realize my state The gaping holes that make up my heart The mess that is now my spiri...

*THUD* That’s the sound of my stomach dropping For even immersed in my sadness I see your name drift idly by as scarlet letters Scarlet letters washed from our shore *GULP* The sound of my swallowed pride As I run for a glimpse Ran ever faster to keep you with me Forgive me I wasn’t swift enough Or is it that you were… *SIGH* The unashamed breath of my yearning Can your sigh echo mine So I may know you yearn as well Or that you once did *SNIFF* I’m leaking broken goodbyes Hand me a nail love So I may fix them and make ME whole Better yet hand me that torch love So I may burn them away and make US whole * HUMPH * That’s my disdain for our humanity Couldn’t we rise above our mutual stations? Rise and capture our fairytale I promise I almost gleamed it once Our happily ever more *SMASH* I cast these gifts aground What use are flowered baubles If they didn’t lead to forever Once catching our light Now too bright...