Seasickness on the boulevard

Choking from tears flowing the wrong way
holding on as tight as i can
trying to stay puzzled
A humpty dumpty
An ebony porcelain cup 
pieced together with gum and bits of sponge
With no where to dock 
for nothing lays beneath the puzzle pieces
Just more water
I'm full of it
confused water
hurt water
angry water
....water everywhere
A sloshing Humpty Dumpty....
Maybe if blood could be churned into butter
id appreciate the upheaval 
that would make me solid
instead I'm full to brimming....
Water! Everywhere!
Everywhere but out
so i wretch
holding on tight
i wrench
hoping my insides will blanch the sidewalk instead.

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